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Monday, May 23, 2005
Half past twelve
And I’m watching the late show in my flat all alone
How I hate to spend the evening on my own
Autumn winds
Blowing outside the window as I look around the room
And it makes me so depressed to see the phone
There’s not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won’t somebody help me chase these shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day
Movie stars
Find the end of the rainbow, with that fortune to win
It’s so different from the world I’m living in
Tired of t.v.
I open the window and I gaze into the night
But there’s nothing there to see, no one in sight
There’s not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won’t somebody help me chase these shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight...
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight...
There’s not a soul out there
No one to hear my prayer
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won’t somebody help me chase these shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Won’t somebody help me chase these shadows away
Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight
Take me through the darkness to the break of the day
A MAN, Not these Boys Playing Dress Up...
I'M NO ONE'S "BRO"!WTF!
*-alex-*
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
One Step Closer to Adulthood..buying my own Toliet Paper.
Sorry no pictures this entry, I didn't want any proof of this weekend laying around.
It was so strange being in the house alone and stuff.
Thursday Night Jake came over...He had read the previous entry. I’m still not positive what went down that night but I ended up with yogurt.
Friday at school really super sucked If I had heard Jake's name one more time I would have screamed. Friday night I hung out w/ Lanie at the pool hall and after awhile Joe joined us (yes the Mormon you haven't heard about in forever.) It was super fun, I really enjoyed hanging out with Joe, Just as friends. We totally did the whole Karaoke thing. Eric, Sheena and Ryan came up there but barely talked to us, and didn’t even say good bye to us but that’s cool they just said good bye to their pool privileges this summer. Sucks for them. We met some cool people. We definitely dedicated Love Shack to this guy named Jason. (..it’s a little place where me and Jason can get together…) As I was walking in the door that night Jake called and we talked for a little bit. That was cool.
Saturday morning, No Lindsey (weekend in Wilmington) and No Lanie (Carowins) I gardened and cleaned my room and started moving all the stuff put of it since mom wants to paint it. After that I spent the majority of the day on the couch watching Law and Order SVU. Around 6:00 I realized there was zero toilet paper in the house and no toothpaste either. At the same time I also realized… “Wow, I haven’t seen Jay in awhile” (he was the original J by the way) So I called him up and asked told) him to come pick me up so I could go get some toilet paper, toothpaste and some RED lip gloss (I’ve been lusting after a tube of it for weeks now). He said cool and he’d probably leave in about 20 minutes. I estimated about a half hour till he got there and flipped. I still smelled like smoke from the pool hall the night before. I took a quick shower, when I got out I revised my original plan to slip on some sweatpants, and put on the jeans that make my butt look big in a good way and my new green collared shirt. Then I ended up with a few extra minutes and I made my hair look real pretty and put on some makeup. Some may wonder: “why all the extra attention? It’s just Jay.” I just felt like looking pretty I guess for some reason I could tell something cool was about to happen. (Plus, I wanted to look hot w/ another guy in case I ran into Jake or one of his friends..) I was putting the final touches on when Jay got there. We went up to Wal Mart and I got the stuff I needed then I went w/ Jay to the grocery store and Auto Zone. Then he wanted to take me out to dinner (SWEET!) We went to Chili’s (all the way in High Point <-- My old ‘hood’) Country Fried steak..Yum!! Then we went to hang out in front of O’Reily’s Auto Parts--where all the kids w/ cool cars hang out at in High Point. I met a bunch of his friends. When I met this guy named Jon. Jon is hot. I talked to him a bunch when I wasn’t getting stuck in the women’s restroom at race track. I kind of stole his Nesquik Arm Band too. I rolled up to the house in Jay’s car about 12:15 am. I was exhausted.
Sunday Morning Jay picked me up for church and after that a bunch of us went to taco bell and then Kristin, Carley, Craig, Jay and me went to the mall. I got a David Bowie Shirt, 2 pins and a bracelet from hot topic. After that me and Jay needed coffee. We went out to the place in Oak Ridge. YUM! Then on the way back to the house I called up Lanie and Lindsey and invited them over for dinner. So I picked up a $5 pizza on the way home and some lime pepsi. We had a awesome meal. The Jon came over and hung out with us outside for awhile, Lanie and Lindz also fell for him! Who couldn't? He's Super Sweet! Alas, Jon had to go… He Kissed me good bye though! Yay! A little while later lanie and lindz left too…sad. I went to bed early and looked forward to mom coming home. Somewhere around 6:30ish Maddie showed up.
I hardly rember Monday nothing cool happened other than mom coming home, I just worked on my International Relations Project, watched TV and got EL P take out. Today was cool though Jake came over this afternoon and we talked things out were cool now but definitely only friends. Really bad country songs about people leaving each other played as we talked. Then I ordered more pizza.
I <3 THE FAINT.
Night Lovers*-alex-*
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Long time no update.
Double date w/ Jake, Troy and Troy's Girlfriend Amanda. Well. Then girlfriend, they broke up last Saturday. We Went to Hooters and T-Roy's House for a bonfire. I had a really good time!
Crazy Saturday Night at Lanie's, same night as Glenn's prom. Jake stopped by in his tux. Very Handsome. Lanie cooked, we ate lots of ice cream and her bro's pizza (he's such a @$$), looked at old pictures, listened to the awesome mixed CD I made for the night, made crazy videos and I sang.
Last week was pretty boring besides hanging out w/ Jake a whole lot.
Spring folly was last weekend it was really big this year I went Friday night w/ Mom, Katrinka and Jake for like a hour and half. Ran into a lot of people including Joe. That was awkward.
I went again on Saturday night w/ Lanie , Jake, Chris and Jake's Bro. We Talked to tons of people and me and Lanie each got fireman hats and we bought a candy apple for lindz-0.
It was really fun.
On Mothers day I went Bike riding w/ mom, Maddie, our neighbors Lindsey and Claudia, and Nancy a friend of our. (just the girls) we rode 21 miles round trip to go eat a Salem tavern. I was sooo sore, I haven't been on a bike in like 5 or 6 years. I was about to die. I got a really gross bruise too!
Got into a little spat w/ Lanie, Lindz and Mandie yesterday but I think were cool now. I’m not at liberty to discuss it here though.
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Thursday, April 28, 2005
Got a minor head injury on Monday.
Went home early from school Tuesday b/c of a major headache.
Skipped school yesterday but still went to church. Thats went well.
Went to the Chiropractor today b/c of all my headaches, backaches, muscle spasms, and other weird problems turns out my back is way way way outta wack and now i have to go 3 times a week for the next month.yay. It's think curved toward the right or something and my head sticks out too far.
Went to EL P tonite w/ Mom, Dad, Maddie, Claudia, Matt and Nancy.
The Backstreet Boys have a new song out. Incomplete.
Fun Stuff.
I think my cell phone needs a name.
leave a comment if you can think of one.
*-alex-*
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Monday, April 25, 2005
Man, I'm In Total Like With This Kid.
It's been a pretty slow week, if you subtract all the "Wow you actually choose one??" comments and the all the wows and my mom saying Jake was cute. Don't forget to take out the Junior-Senior Banquet w/ Ryan at Salem. You also have to take out the whole "WOW, I cannot hang out with Chris anymore" thing.
I haven't this way since I decided to break off my friend ship with Ben a year and half ago but the difference is I told Chris straight up how I felt (it took a little encouragement though. Thanks mankins!) and didn't just insinuate stuff and avoid him, I told Chris straight up how I felt about him and what my decision was and even though i was starting to cry while I did it I refused to let him change my mind like he could so easily do a few months ago. I'm very proud off my self! That’s twice lately I told people how I felt about them. First Jake now Chris and although the feelings I conveyed to them were totally different (One set of feelings were all happiness and stuff the other set was just friendship, anger, and awkwardness all mixed together.) After each experience I've gotten the same feeling of pride. It's like I've mastered some skill I've been trying to learn for a long time and in a way that’s exactly what it is.
I love knowing I can handle things and I don't have to stay unhappy because I don't know how to express myself I love this confidence I've gained lately!
In the last week I've had a considerable amount of extra time compared to when I had play practice all the time. It's given me allot of thinking time. I realize how much I've learned from these last crappy 6 months. I'm so over all the drama I feel like with all my loose ends of drama tied up and with the people who really care about me on my side I feel like I can take on the world and accomplish anything (sorry if I’m getting to corny!)
I leave you with this...
Me: do you think he saw us walkin to 2nd period together and just embellished a little?
Mankins: embellished???
Mankins: wtf does that mean?
He's not that smart but trust me he cleans up pretty well but his girlfriend still looks better in pink than him check it out..You may be shocked to hear it but I'm happy for those two crazy kids.
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